Many people living in one day at a time recovery can fall into the trap of disturbed thinking. What we discover is that our egoic imaginings can disturb us to point that we take offense when no offense was intended. Simple misunderstandings occur and our ego often misconstrue realities from being truthfully nothing into realities of being purposely hurt and belittled. Sensitive egoic imaginings tend to feed into thoughts of egoic fear that often become our initial reaction when we imagine insult or disrespect which if we let it, it will result in disturbed thinking. In as such we can become bitter and resentful people. After living in recovery for a while, and this while might take years, we learn to challenge the imaginings of our ego. When we practice this we learn to let go of fear induced disturbed thinking. In other words we will no longer be controlled by the ego’s sensitivity and paranoia. Such egoic imaginings will continue to happen but we know this and we are capable of letting go of these thoughts, especially when we are doing well. This is the reality of living in recovery and in such recovery we understand the gift of letting go. We are being welcomed into healthy reality. Peace.
