Those of us who are living in one day at a time recovery sometimes know when we are hearing what we feel. When someone asks us to think of them we might hear dependency because we, ourselves, feel overwhelmed and are in need of support. Frustrated we say, “What do you want Me to do?” They answer us with a simple request for a prayer. We needed support and all they needed was a thought. We, when as newcomers are feeling on fire with our program tell our sponsors all they need to do to be in recovery and our sponsors ask us who is sponsoring who. Our feelings, a bit grandiose, think our sponsors need us to be their sponsors. This is another example of hearing what we feel. Perhaps we will learn after doing this too many times that we all have our own agendas. Now we are learning feelings are not always facts. How do we stop this? It just comes to us. It’s usually a nudge that comes to us a little after on and we realize what we are doing. It’s thinking with self. It comes and it goes. One day at a time.
