Those of us who live in one day at a time recovery understand that we sometimes feel perplexed and that we sometimes feel amazed. There are even times that we feel both perplexed and amazed at the same time. We can feel perplexed because the bondage of self drives us into a world of complete defeat causing active addiction which seems to be rooted in countless amounts of self-centered fear. In another reality we were amazed that this self-centered fear led us into one day at a time recovery. In other words we reached out for help. We were soon to learn that God, the spirit, or the universe solidified our recovery through the actions and words of other people and we learned to follow suit. We discovered that we were recipients of grace. We said to ourselves, “Why me?” and “Why me?”. We discovered that we can feel perplexed and amazed at the same time. When this happens we usually get to understand gratitude and we continue to live in one day at a time recovery because of it. Something has transformed the bondage of self into the reality of self-obsessive freedom and it can be kind of amazing. We have shaken hands with our shadow self. Peace.
