Some people living life one day at a time believe we are sabotaging our recovery when we feel the need to be in control all the time. Needing to be in control can be an anxiety promoting endeavor. We cannot control the universe and everyone in it. Many of us went from losing control when getting buzzed on something turned into us always winding up getting wasted. We found total abstinence to be the answer. As we practiced recovery, the quest for control of everyone and everything grew rapidly. Control would give us that sense of ease that we once knew. Little did we realize we weren’t controlling our addiction. We switched it to being in control. The need to always be in control took over our lives and we felt lost. In defeat we decided to put everyone and everything under the care of God, the spirit, or the universe, and we started to feel much better. We realized that that we were gaining peace and contentment. We learned what we could do and what we could not do. And we became less anxious knowing our true responsibilities and our real reality. Peace.
