Those of us who live in one day at a time recovery are familiar with (when). When is the projection to the future and in such projections are the conditions of when. For example – when things get less stressful I will stop using and when I stop using I will be happy and less controlling and when I am less controlling I will be able to relax and when I can relax I will be less stressed…. and so on and so forth… perhaps soon. Reality for many of us is we need help. Without help we live in avoidance of the now. We need to reach out. Also future projections bring us worry. The what ifs. What if I lose my job? What if I lose my house or my apartment? What if I get sick and the world goes to hell in a hand basket? What if? We just don’t know. We do our best to prepare for such adversity but our reality is some of us are just two paychecks away from bankruptcy. The when and the worry. We try not to live there. Living in today and doing what needs to be done today can keep when and worry away. Today, and living in recovery gives us hope. We need to be engaged in meaningful activities that help free our minds. Even if it’s just having a coffee with someone. Peace.
