When life gets busy at such times as the Christmas holidays I wonder if I lose a sense of living one day one day one day recovery when I get busy being caught up in this busy festive season.
In my life the holidays become a build up of Christmas shows, eating, decorating, eating, shopping, eating, church festivities, eating, seeing family and friends, eating, exchanging gifts, Christmas morning, eating, Christmas dinner, and eating and its December 29th and I am still eating. I am just now getting back to my one day be well today recovery blog and this writing feels good.
Now the real, or should I say the not so busy and stressful world is here once again. For those of us who live with mental illness the past little while could have been a very lonely and depressing time of the year. It was a reasonably good Christmas for Brenda and me and our families seemed to have survived it but that is not the way it is for everyone who lives with a mental illness or a mental illness with addictions. It is a sad and painful tragedy that not all of us survive the holidays.
Now as I have mentioned reality sets in. Work, chores, budgeting, and staying grounded have hit me hard tonight. Also the fact that in our area where Brenda and I live we could have four more months of winter weather and storms play with my coping level. Tonight we are safe at home and we will count that as a blessing.
Now as I think if I were to change anything I would like to be a little more active and manage my eating a little better one day at a time. This helps with anxiety. Today wasn’t too bad for eating. Just for today.
As I venture forward with my recovery blog I am going to try and write shorter blogs at closer intervals starting in 2019. I might expand into different topics if something in life catches my attention.
I was glad to see the holiday season come and I am glad to see that it is passing. I really have nothing to resolve except that I would like to remain reasonably happy, joyous and free from substance addiction just for this day. I thank God for each new day which is a chance to be clean and sober one day at a time and to live well while facing adversity the best that I can with the support of my loved ones and my friends that live life in recovery one day one day one day at time. And I continue to take medication as prescribed by a competent physician.
Stress comes and stress goes. I have heard that this too shall pass. If you are reading this today I hope that you are well. I hope that your are reasonably happy and that you are content just for this day. I no longer try and fight my addictions as I know that one is too many and a thousand is never enough. I do not take that first one just for today. Thank you for reading. Be well today.