Quite a number of years ago, while talking with a mental health support worker, I was told that we all have similar feelings, and struggles, but it appeared to her that such things in me seemed to be magnified. I don’t know why, but this statement seemed to ruffle my ego. In retrospect, I believe I was offended because I thought I was special. I thought I had this world and recovery figured out. I believed that I had obtained a measure of spirituality that made me important. I thought that I was an inspiration, and l didn’t realize that this serenity I found was a hint of an elevating mood disorder and a slightly inflated ego. I cannot say that it was all bad, but this sense of magnified happiness was slightly unreal. I still had many struggles which were common to the many adversities of life, but I had a good support system. I really didn’t have a grasp on day at a time living. I didn’t know how to be reasonably happy.
I have learned to live with adversity and I have learned to accept what I cannot change. Being reasonably happy is not second rate living. I believe it helps to curb obsessive want. Reasonable happiness has a lot of contentment and joy in it. Usually, when being reasonably happy, my ego has a bit of humility and my moods aren’t so elevated. I have become a recovering person who has a much better understanding of one day at a time living. I guess if you want to understand reasonable happiness it is living with humility and having reasonable expectations of yourself, others, and life in general.
I now know that I am important, that your are important, that all people are important. Recovering friends have taught me that we are no better or no worse than anyone else. In addition to this these people have taught me that we are just as good as others as well.
I know that in this introspective writing that I am quite self-obsessive but this is the way we share our experience and hope as we reach out to others. If you are a person who perhaps feels quite important I believe you are. I, myself, prefer to be reasonable and reasonably happy. It has a wonderful way of helping one to be contented and to face adversity one day at a time. Thank you for reading. Be well today.