Some people with mental health conditions that are concurrent with addictions can become anxious when they are not buzzed. When the person with the concurrent disorder has a glow they often feel as though they are in control. Even when wasted we can believe that we are perfectly fine.
When I was in this state I couldn’t see that I was living for or I was preoccupied with the high. Believing that I was in control I could not see that I was losing sight of my reality. A concurrent disorder made my life completely unmanageable.
Now that I am in recovery I find that I can cope with life as best that I can and it is easier to go with the flow. I try to keep life simple and I try not too panic when life becomes stressful. Some people would call this letting go and some people call it letting go and letting God.
On my own and by myself I know that I can make a pretty big mess of things. I touch base with God every morning and every night. During the rest of the time I use a centering prayer. Some people use the Serenity Prayer.
Often I will use a centering prayer to dismiss vagrant thoughts. This is the noise in your head that tells you are no good or that you will never make anything of your life. Sometimes vagrant thoughts will tell you to pick up and get a buzz. Centering prayers such as the Serenity Prayer will help to focus on recovery one day at a time. They are tools to recovery and peace of mind.
I have been told that I can be too hard on myself and when I am I can also be easily frustrated with others. When this happens I know that I am not on a humble and content path. Anxiety and depression can ignite this way of thinking. Centering prayer can bring one back to a content frame of mind.
If I can be gentle with myself and others I can let go of the need to always be in control. This can be difficult when one is trying to cope with a concurrent disorder because we can tend to be less flexible and adaptable to some of life’s changes than other people without our conditions.
We can learn to go with the flow when we are reasonable and when we learn to turn it over. When we are healthy we can practice humility and patience. I find it helpful when I don’t find the desire or the need to instill my will on others. I try and go with the flow. Thank you for reading. Be well today.