July 2022

Can the truth of desperation ever change a person’s heart
With the loss of childhood’s innocence when your soul is torn apart
In frustration of the daily climb born to fall and fall again
When you want to walk and hold the sky but you don’t know how or when

And you often saw the mountain peak for it appeared but ran away
While stars would dance as the clouds would pass while the moon would often say
That we are deaf to vague vague words of love and hope and trust
And we would often hear those God damned words from dust to dust to dust

And our torn and tattered souls will bow as dust to dust begins
And a jester sort of cries a tear and a jester sort of grins
While our souls have found the mountain peaks as they walk and hold the sky
While a jester weeps a happy tear with a soft and grateful sigh

And betwixt our desperation is the greatest gift we’ve found
It’s the silence when we’re torn apart with a calming raging sound
And you know that you’re a child of God from this deep and desperate start
When you feel the gift of gratitude and you have found the human heart

Some people are creative driven people. Often when we seek to create something we are trying to express our feelings and our beliefs. Often we are sharing our values, and our intentions to participate in this journey that we call life. When we create we often can be exposed to a touch of humility. When being a creative person we will understand that life is not a competition. We accept this when we realize that creation is not merely an endeavor to inflate our egos. We understand that creativity is a part of our being. In my case it is a component of one day at a time recovery. Good, bad, or indifferent, creativity helps us all belong. If we step out of our egos we can all identify. Thank you for reading.

When we have been in one day at a time recovery we begin to have new beginnings. I believe I am beginning to not only wake up after a sleep, I am awakened in a new beginning. Grace has made it so. And to some of us this grace, this awakening, is a God thing. These beginnings of new beginnings seem to happen every five to eight years. Sometimes sooner – sometimes longer. These new beginnings change so like the developing seasons of life. The idea is to go with them and to pay attention to the grace that comes with them. These new beginnings do not make us better, smarter, healthier, or more spiritually fit than others. We simply begin to recognize these new beginnings with gratitude. And at these new beginnings we know grace and we know love. When calm and not stressed we see the frailties of the ego and we see the ego does not consume us. We can spend time alone much better than we could before. This is part of the beginning of new beginnings. Not perfection, but new beginnings. We know we are awakened by grace each and every day.